Oh what a day....another one!!

Okay, I am so tired after the day I have had but I need to get this written down and so here goes.

Yesterday Meggan GR and myself went to Chris's apt. to help pack the rest of the things that he hasn't had time for and we wanted to do a service project for him as he does so much for all of us. So any way we did that yesterday morning, came home and spent the rest of the day as usually. I mentioned to Meggan that I wanted to come back tomorrow, today, to finish it up and I wanted to go early because I had other things that Bruce wanted to do this afternoon, and because I really wanted some time with Meggan and it is easier with out GR to do most things. And I just need to get away from her some times and have some time to feel like I have a normal life. Any way, she picked me up 8:15 am and we went on our way, GR wasn't even up at that moment. Well, we went on our way and she got up 15 Min's later. I had told Bruce what to tell her, and I guess he did . However, she was in one of those moods and it didn't help, she started saying that I didn't want her around and that first Aunt Sandy didn't want her and now I didn't want her around and she started crying and acting out and had a real melt down. I have been noticing lately that she has been having a hard time with the amount of time I spend on the phone with my daughters, and she has made several comments. I have noticed that she is fine as long I give her all the attention but as soon as my attention is turned away to some one else except Bruce she really gets jealous , so any way Bruce called me about 3 hours after being gone, and told me about this happening , well, I was not happy needless to say, it felt and feels still like I can't leave her for even a few min's because she feels like I am not caring if I do.... well as you all know me.... I was upset with her when I came home an hour later after Bruce's phone call, so I walked into the house and you could have cut the tension with a knife, so I took the bull by the nose and went over to her and told her that we needed to talk, she said no, and I said yes, we have a problem that needed to be resolved. Needles to say she broke out in tears again and we talked or I should say I did most of the talking, but she did say a few things like she missed her family, and she wants to go home, and that her sisters don't miss her because they don't ever see her or call, not true, but in her head it is because she doesn't know time at all. But the thing that got her really in trouble with me was when she said that I didn't want her here, and I am afraid I got alittle stern with her and told her that it wasn't fair that she should say that because if I really didn't want her here she wouldn't be here.... needless to say she did apoligize because she knew I was right, any way I did remind her again about her illness and some other things , and then we got on with our afternoon.
Now I know it is her illness, and I need to have patience with her and I do most of the time, but there are limits even with me. I am not about to give up my time with my daughters, even if it is on the phone ( she hates it that I talk for hours some times on the phone with all of them) and not about her either.... infact very little does it ever concern her ,she has got to get over the fact that I have a life other then her. I feel badly for her and have a great concern for her, but I do have a life beyond her. Any way we are back to normal this evening, Bruce took her to church and we are doing our thing this evening , watching TV before we go to bed.
I hope it is true what they say, that she won't really remember this day for long. It is hard, but for the most part we do really well around here. But if every time I leave her and she gives Bruce a hard time I am afraid we may have more problems then what she is ready for.....time will tell.
Any way keep us in your prayers we need them.
This is it for my rambling tonight. Love ya all.